Sometimes I feel like life is an affectionate older sibling. You know the kind... they like to pull your hair and threaten to wipe their spit on you, but at the end of the day, they're always there to give you a hug. Or push you down. Whatever. It's kind of the same thing, right? ;)
The past two weeks, life has definitely treated me like a younger sibling. Kindness: an interview with Idaho State that I felt good about. Bullying: having to pay for a ticket in a school zone that you didn't see. Kindness: Getting to go see the midnight showing of The Hobbit with friends. Bullying: Having to take my Biochemistry final the same night. Kindness: Getting a 5% boost on the multiple-question portion of my exam! Bullying: Getting an 89.6% in the class overall when I needed 90% to get an A-. Yeah, that's how it's been.
And I mean, that's always how life is going to be, right? I guess I just get frustrated sometimes because I feel like right now I'm so in-between. I don't know if I'll get into PA school this year or next year. I don't even know if I'll be living in the same state by the end of this year. Going to PA school (at some point), getting married, being an awesome wife & mother... these are things I want but things that I don't necessarily have complete control over. *sigh*
BUT... life is so good. And despite the feeling that I am not going anywhere in life right now, I know that I am. I guess the funny thing about life is that as you gain experience, your challenges grow to meet you--which means life will always seem hard. But some things are worth the effort, the time, the wait. And I know that I have a Savior who will help make up for my shortcomings, even if that help doesn't always come when and how I want it. The fact that His help is certain, though--now that's something to be grateful for.
Lotsa' love,
me.
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